So here I am, crying at work in the middle of my lunch break. . . typical lately.
Yeah, so here's the news. I'm trying to get a grip. Basically, the department of state is saying that adoptions that have not gone through PGN by January 1 will be stopped in process until such a time when Guatemala becomes Hague compliant. They will not be grandfathered in as was the previous thought.
And so the problem is that we are really going to be right on the line. We're going to talk with our agency today, but it's just terrifying. I mean I've got this 5 x 7 photo of our family on my desk right in front of me. And I know that to outsiders it may seem like these are just two boys that we WANT to be in our family, but to us, we ARE family already. . .
I just don't know what to do. Not sure how to get through the rest of this day. It's just really scary and heart-wrenching, and I don't want to even THINK of the possibility that something could happen, but .
I keep thinking about what people have said, what God has promised -- 'he who began a good work --' and that I know if the bottom of my heart that God is a GOOD God and his ways are GOOD ways. And that if something were to happen, then he must have some plan that I do not understand.
*deep breath*
So please pray. I guess, just pray that God's will is done. That if he means for our family to be joined, then it will be. -- and that I can be strong enough to get through to waiting no matter what happens.
3 comments:
I will say lots of extra prayers for your family. I saw the statement yesterday and it left me sick to my stomach. I am going to email you privately with some information I found out that may give you some comfort. They are your boys and you are a family. Those boys will be home the end of this year...I just know it.
Sending lots of love and a hug,
D
I'm certainly right there with you Kelli. I'm waiting on a response from our agency too. Hugs to you and Ray. Praying for us all.
Kelli, I realize this is an INCREDIBLY STRESSFUL time for you and Ray with the latest, very serious DOS warning they released this week about current in-process adoptions needing to be approved by PGN prior to Jan 1, 2008.... along with all of the Hague compliance stress....
Anyhow, about a year ago there was a BIG scare for us in adopting Sofia. BIG. MAMMOTH. HORRIBLY HUGE.
I was a WRECK - I couldn't eat or sleep or function for DAYS.
Until I realized who was TRULY standing in the gap for our family and the other families!!! It made a WORLD of difference when I focused on the PROMISE that is written to me in God's word.
As you know, I am encouraging EVERYONE to take action and get involved in contacting the DOS, Congressman, Senators & The White House about the latest looming threat to Guatemalan adoption....and more info is available on my blog: http://ourguatemalanbaby.blogspot.com/
But Kelli, my prayer for you today is that you would experience peace and hope. Please know that we are here for you. We have walked the ever-winding path of international adoption and we know the aching pain of being separated from your heart in Guatemala.
I know the **ONLY** thing that helpmed me get through a day sometimes was th choose to fill my head and heart with the love and commitment that God had for me, my family, and Sofia.
Much love,
Tricia
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